Chapter 16: Resilience and Sparkle

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Today was a bit of a climb. I woke up late and felt that familiar weight of sadness, but I didn’t let it stop me. I managed to get through leg day and spent a lot of time deeply considering how to approach advocacy and make an impact. I’m also in the process of picking my life back up, piece by piece.

Talking to my friend helped; knowing he’s also struggling to keep up with things made me feel less isolated. We are both just seeing how things go.

The big focus now is tomorrow. Despite the nerves and the uncertainty about who will be there, I am genuinely excited to look pretty and enjoy the wedding party. I’ve put in the preparation, and I deserve to feel good about myself. I’m ready to step out of this funk and into a celebration.

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